"esprit de l'escalier"

"witty remark or snappy retort that comes to mind after the opportunity has passed to use it "

hah!- that's my word!

I'm either driving, showering or performing some domestic chore when the lightbulbs start flaring up in my face about things I shoulda said in a comment..(er not said)
I wonder if there is an english version of this word.

in an english version, I would have to tack this on to the meaning: "rapidly formed astute observations of substantial pertinance through informed thought" along side "witty remark" and "snappy retort".
I did ask santa for pithiness this year but apparently that's been on back-order for quite sometime.

I so wish I had rapid command while trying to formulate my thoughts, you know, just get them typed out and be happy with the result, be done! - and on to other things. I would save an embarrasing amount of time I take to jot down even the simplist cogitations. I have tons of passion but seem to short-circuit when it comes to getting my thoughts from my head to the screen without deleting and re-typing umpteen million times, never mind all the fine-tuning when I'm about to hit "post". Type A you say? uhhhhh....huh.
I read other peoples's words/thoughts and then I really feel my inadequacies, there are some people out there who are really adept at writing.
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Over at one my favorite blog-reads, I went on and on in a comment about a video by a Pastor Francis Chan. I was in a hurry, supposed to be getting ready to leave for several days, yet I spent hours trying to convey my thoughts on this video, why?? . . pff, who knows, I'm an empassioned soul looking for outlets, yet lacking a smooth ride. And to top it off I left my rough-ride of a comment under a less-than-suitable post, yeek.
I don't know what prompted me to put the effort into posting my thoughts on this video. My goodness, there have been so many other posts over there that have been truly a real blessing to me and I would have done much better to say so. Much easier than to try and (basically) preach to the real preachers. (!)

I'm certain I created less than a tiny blip amongst all the hub-bub that formed surrounding the video. Yet as I see it, I might have stepped where I shouldn't have so I felt the need to clean-up the bottom of my shoes a bit more, better to do it in my blog, (that I barely use as it is).
(the permalinks for there don't go directly to the comments?)
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These days, I've been especially interested in what God says about . . well, about everything, so I've prayed, and even wondered aloud to Him what He'd like me to do with all this passion to learn, to write, and to reveal my thoughts -- on the www?

I've come to conclude what I've suspected all along: that some of this passion first stem from a humanistic source and not from the Christ-centered one.
Certainly, if it is "no longer I who lives but Christ who lives in me"

well then, I dasn't waste all this time fretting on things to serve myself when I should be out serving Him who serves us so well, so graciously, so sufficiently.

So, I think He wants me to just stay quiet for awhile longer and keep reading His word.



edit Jan 19th/
*sigh*

Just tidying up the place - gone for the weekend -
back on Monday.

Blessings to all ~